Wednesday, staying motivated

No CC use 1 month 13 days
Personal checking -$194.12
Studio checking  $70.46


     Money is tight and the shop is slower than I would like, this has just made me less motivated.  It is easy for me to get a little down in the dumps.  I also believe this time of year with all the darkness and cold and sad memories makes me blue.  Today is my oldest daughter's Birthday and the day of Franka's passing.  So bitter sweet  thoughts take over.  I told myself this morning I was going to stay motivated.

     Sometimes I have to march myself Pippi Longstocking style around the house and say, "You are going to do this."  As I sat at the computer first thing this morning despondent and unmoving, I had to tell myself that I had plenty to do.  In the shop there were 6 hems sitting on my sewing chairs.  So I did them.  It took 20 minutes.  That is $60.00.  $60.00 that will help take the dent out of the checking overdraft.  I then started looking around the shop and realized I have plenty of things to keep me busy.  Just what is my problem?

     I have often thought this for a long time.  I am as addicted to being behind and under pressure as I am to debting.  If I don't feel the adrenaline rush of pressure I don't feel the need to get things done.  What a terrible habit.  I mean really if I don't have $600.00 worth of piles of sewing I cannot sew?  I really need to work on this.  Get your butt into the shop and do what you have, quit feeling sorry for yourself.

     So I've made the bed, swept the floor, fed the animals, cleaned the kitchen and I have a big old pile of sewing to do.  I also need to clean out the fridge and make turkey salad do a little baking.  Every day I take the checks that come into the studio and I deposit them and pay a bill or two.  I am slowly whittling them down. Today I paid ASCAP fees and and the phone bill.  Next is the power bill which was HIGH this month.  But one day at a time.

     Out My Window:  Still overcast and cold, damp.

I will stay motivated.

Have a great and productive day.

Kim